Service
He asked for an evening of service. I began to plan. What types of things could I do for him? What would he enjoy? What would be most useful? He cautioned me to not get too specific, to have a Continue reading Service
Category Archives: D/s
Facing My Fears
Phobia – an irrational, intense and persistent fear. I have three. Two have been tested recently. The third, needles, I am still working towards. Sparklers were used in the most recent scene. A snake was used some weeks ago. I Continue reading Facing My Fears
Turn Ons
A short post today. It’s been a busy week and I have more things still to do. What turns me on? I’ve posted about my fantasies. I’ve posted about my kinks. But what really turns me on? The simple things. Continue reading Turn Ons
Scattered Thoughts
Public Humiliation – I knelt on his boot, surrounded. They talked of friendship and history and alcohol. Or they were, before I landed on his boot. I could not really hear them, after. He ground it into me, a stern Continue reading Scattered Thoughts
Reflection
These last few weeks, I have not done justice to myself, my partners, or to you, my readers. Last week’s post was the best of the bunch, a description of a wonderful scene. But what has been going on? What’s Continue reading Reflection
Do It
Lift up your chin. Look in his eyes. Speak clearly what’s on your mind. To him. Shut off the chatter. Keep your mind focused. Doubt and fear have no place here. With him. Happiness is everywhere. Open your eyes. Imperfections Continue reading Do It
Failure and Perfection
Failure of perfection. Perfection of failure. Fail again. Fail better. Make mistakes with confidence. Reach for the moon, even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars. I grew up with the expectation of perfection. All A’s in school or Continue reading Failure and Perfection
What Turns You On?
I often think of this question in terms of the physical. What can he DO to turn me on? This is often the easy answer, the safe answer. It involves the surface of my being. Often it involves involuntary physical Continue reading What Turns You On?
Ritual
Ritual: Any practice or pattern of behavior regularly performed in a set manner. This week, I was asked to create a purging ritual that accepts the scene for what it was to myself as object and free myself as girlfriend Continue reading Ritual
No Limits
I posted my limits list some time back. Recently, however, I asked him to take me into the darkness. Deep into it, past simple submission and into places where limits only get in the way. I had face slapping as Continue reading No Limits