September 25th, 2009
Just in case you missed it the first time, because apparently someone did… with very few exceptions, if you think you “Can’t say No to him” then you Should Not be playing with him and you need to take a careful look at yourself. For that matter, he shouldn’t be playing with you either, because he can’t trust you to be safe and honest.
May 27th, 2009
I never thought of myself as a service sub – until I met him. I was taught, growing up, to love and care for people, and help whenever I could, but I considered this a completely separate behavior set. When I met him and he insisted I do something in exchange for the scenes he gave me, it just seemed natural. Especially as it began as cleaning up after the scene. It gave me a chance to come down as well as to do something useful to thank him.
As our relationship progressed and we discovered other things I wanted from him, we discussed what else I could do for him. It was then he labeled me a service sub. I fought the label at first, comparing myself to others who self-identified that way, or insisted it was a behavior only he inspired. We do have a very unique relationship, but my desire to serve, to be useful, is evident throughout my life if I am willing to look for it.
Serving him this weekend, not in exchange for any scenes, but for his gratitude and simple expressions of his affection was a joy-filled experience.
May 20th, 2009
After various poking and prodding, I have decided to start this blog. Thoughts of: Who am I to write a blog? What if no one reads it? Why would anyone care what I have to say? Have been overridden by Why shouldn’t I? What if I want to? Why not? So here I am, to take you on a ride through my world. Hang on tight, it’s bumpy, wild and sometimes very dark.
Who am I? I am called kinky, submissive, polyamorous, pain slut, rope slut, slave, brat, SAM, bottom, and service top. I am a writer, a gamer, and an explorer. I am on a journey to find my bliss, to find my muse, and to live life with no arbitrary restrictions.
What is this? This is where I will write about my journey. I will fill this space with musings, frustrations, reflections, rants and erotica.
Welcome to my world. Enjoy your visit.