Raw

Feeling like a raw exposed nerve too often these days. Where’s the protective sheath gone? Why can’t I deal with noisy people? Why do little things bring me to tears? I’m an emotional person, I get that(and as he mentioned, just because there are no physical signs, there’s still a cycle), but sensory overload, too? At normal places like practice and bars?

And reverting to old online habits to be social. I can deal with people without the noise. I’m in a chatroom with friends. Pondering going back to an MMO. Making plans for much smaller groups, or one-on-one. I want to be social, but I’m so tired, and large groups in person, or loud people just drain me so fast.

Need to recharge. Maybe I can spend some time on campus this weekend, or at the reserve. Nice and quiet, and maybe even sunny.

I’ve got big events coming up, gotta get back in gear. One is outdoors, though, can wander off to the woods if I need to.

And then there will be England. 🙂

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